[pages missing] . . . I woke up with the same feeling last night, hearing the same voice calling from downstairs . . . [page torn] . . . walking from the room . . . seeing . . . [page torn] . . . understanding . . . [pages missing]

[letter burned] . . . and that would be a repeat performance. But I must be honest with you:

What's wrong with that! I mean, what happened?

What exactly turned you from college? Hell--

your WORLD! You were bold to make that GPA.

But you were even more bold to leave it all behind.

What, John? What is it? . . .

You were searching for something . . . and then you found it . . .

[remaining pages burned]

[P.J.]

I cannot stand a separation from peace in God any longer.

P.J. has become . . .

Dear John,

I know you've had a realization.

I know you know . . . about me.

I AM REAL.

No one can tell you otherwise.

My voice . . . it no longer needs to hold you from the Self . . .

P.J.